Tears are forming in your eyes,
a storm is warning in the skies,
the end of the world it seems,
you bend down and you fall on your knees,
well get back on your feet ,yeah,
don't look away, don't run away,baby it's only life,
don't lose your faith,
don't run away,
it's only life.
+Kate Voegele-It's Only Life
Shoes: Charlotte Russe, Jeans: Kohls, Shoes: Charlotte Russe, Headband: Wal-Mart, Bracelet: Gift
Hey everybody! I want to thank all of you so so so so so so (and so on haha) much who left me those encouraging words. It helped so much, whenever I start to feel sad I just re read all of your lovely comments and it always makes me feel better.
I am finally starting to move on, I'm still getting upset and everything of course but it is getting so much better. Honestly, I think all of this happened for a reason because now I KNOW I could never let him come back, no matter how much I love him. This all happened to make me realize it is, unfortunatly, really over. I'm always going to love him (even though everyone sais he hates me now....) I'm always going to remember the good times and smile back but I could never go back to that I'm ready for my life to make a new beginning.
Plus, maybe even there's this boy..... ;)
but anyways, as much as this stinks and even though it seems unfair he's already past me I wish him all the happiness in the world-I would honestly much rather have him be happy than miserable.
Evidently he's been going around saying mean stuff about me which really hurts and makes me upset way more than I already am but hey, I can't change what he is going to say. All I can do is keep my chin up and be happy with what I have. I'm happy enough with myself to not have to be in a relationship, although a new relationship with someone sounds pretty amazing right now.
I know that if he would of called me back that night I found out about all of this stuff I wouldv'e taken him back in heart beat, i kept thinking if he just calls back.....but he never did. Now I'm seeing that is probably a good thing after this half of the week.
I am honestly very happy now, I get upset sometimes, but other than that I am truly happy with my life and with myself.
Unfortunatly I think he thinks I'm talking about him or something when all I say is that I'm happy for him and everything...I don't even know who started those rumors. But I can't change what he thinks and I have to accept that now.
Now the only two things I need to work on are: eating and sleeping-two things I have had too much of a lack of since saturday and unfortunatly it's really starting to show. :/
I'm just going to have to work on it myself and if it doesn't get better than consult someone about it I guess. I'll just wait it out for now.
So now all I have left to say is that I'm glad he's found someone (the only thing that stinks is that I feel like I was replaced and like he forgot everything-but again, maybe that will be a good thing in the end who knows) and that I am ready to move on as well.
Who knows, maybe a super cute boy will catch my attention, haha.
Sorry for this crazy ranting post, i guess this is one of the great things about having a blog! haha
Love you all
Currently Listening: Only Life-Kate Voegele
you were always playing hard,
never could let down your guard,
you can't win, if you never give in,
to that voice within, saying pick up your chin,
baby let go of it , yeah,
don't look away, don't run away ,
baby, it's only life.