Sunday, April 19, 2009

My Heart Has Never Felt This Way :)

Hello everybody! I want to apologize, once again for the lack of posts. I plan on updating this daily for now on, this is something good for me right now. I am deffinently back on my feet now-with very few tears and I am no longer sick. I've actually been quite well and I had a fantastic weekend.
And I have some proof now that I am deffinently starting to move on. :)

Anyways, the first outfit is from Thursday and the second one is from Friday! :-)
Dress: Boscovs, Tank: Boscovs, Capris: JcPenny, Sandals: Wal-Mart

Shirt: Wet Seal, Skirt: Deb, Leggings: Wet Seal, Flats: Target. Bracelets: Wet Seal, Watch: Clair's, Earrings: Charlotte Russe

How was everyone's weekend? Good I hope! :-)
Currently Listening: Beautiful Eyes-Taylor Swift
"Let me love you, kiss you, baby let me dream about, dream about your eyes"

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Tears are forming in your eyes

Tears are forming in your eyes,
a storm is warning in the skies,
the end of the world it seems,
you bend down and you fall on your knees,
well get back on your feet ,yeah,
don't look away, don't run away,baby it's only life,
don't lose your faith,
don't run away,
it's only life.
+Kate Voegele-It's Only Life
Shoes: Charlotte Russe, Jeans: Kohls, Shoes: Charlotte Russe, Headband: Wal-Mart, Bracelet: Gift
Hey everybody! I want to thank all of you so so so so so so (and so on haha) much who left me those encouraging words. It helped so much, whenever I start to feel sad I just re read all of your lovely comments and it always makes me feel better.

I am finally starting to move on, I'm still getting upset and everything of course but it is getting so much better. Honestly, I think all of this happened for a reason because now I KNOW I could never let him come back, no matter how much I love him. This all happened to make me realize it is, unfortunatly, really over. I'm always going to love him (even though everyone sais he hates me now....) I'm always going to remember the good times and smile back but I could never go back to that I'm ready for my life to make a new beginning.
Plus, maybe even there's this boy..... ;)

but anyways, as much as this stinks and even though it seems unfair he's already past me I wish him all the happiness in the world-I would honestly much rather have him be happy than miserable.

Evidently he's been going around saying mean stuff about me which really hurts and makes me upset way more than I already am but hey, I can't change what he is going to say. All I can do is keep my chin up and be happy with what I have. I'm happy enough with myself to not have to be in a relationship, although a new relationship with someone sounds pretty amazing right now.

I know that if he would of called me back that night I found out about all of this stuff I wouldv'e taken him back in heart beat, i kept thinking if he just calls back.....but he never did. Now I'm seeing that is probably a good thing after this half of the week.

I am honestly very happy now, I get upset sometimes, but other than that I am truly happy with my life and with myself.

Unfortunatly I think he thinks I'm talking about him or something when all I say is that I'm happy for him and everything...I don't even know who started those rumors. But I can't change what he thinks and I have to accept that now.

Now the only two things I need to work on are: eating and sleeping-two things I have had too much of a lack of since saturday and unfortunatly it's really starting to show. :/
I'm just going to have to work on it myself and if it doesn't get better than consult someone about it I guess. I'll just wait it out for now.

So now all I have left to say is that I'm glad he's found someone (the only thing that stinks is that I feel like I was replaced and like he forgot everything-but again, maybe that will be a good thing in the end who knows) and that I am ready to move on as well.

Who knows, maybe a super cute boy will catch my attention, haha.

Sorry for this crazy ranting post, i guess this is one of the great things about having a blog! haha
Love you all

Currently Listening:
Only Life-Kate Voegele
you were always playing hard,
never could let down your guard,
you can't win, if you never give in,
to that voice within, saying pick up your chin,
baby let go of it , yeah,
don't look away, don't run away ,
baby, it's only life.

Monday, April 13, 2009

sad. sad. sad. advice?

You're always close enough to touch, but never quite close enough to hold; and it's enough to break your heart. -N. Sparks

Hey everybody, so sorry about the lack of posts this month. Not too get too personal but I'm kind of going through a bad breakup right now so hopefully I'll be back on my feet soon.

I actually was wondering if any of you had advice for me, I'm 15 and this boy was my first serious boyfriend (i dated him for over 2 years)
He ended up cheating on me twice but he had promised me so much and I always knew not to take it to heart (im not that naive) but anyways he was the person i always went to for help or if i was upset he always cheered me up. Not only was he my boyfriend but my very best friend. It had felt like it was never going to end. Now I just feel like crap and totally "betrayed" (kinda corny) I'm so used to living my life with him I don't even know what to do now. I should have never become that dependent, but now I can't change the fact that I did. He just started dating this other girl and he's in my class and their in my lunch. I just came home early because it killed me to see them together.
I am usually pretty happy but ever since I found out he liked this girl I've been miserable. and we broke up 4 months ago, now almost 5.

I'm sure some of you have gone through something like this before too, it just I FEEL like I'm the only one even though I'm not. I know I shouldn't miss him ecspecially since LITERALLY our whole relationship was just one big lie but I still do miss him-terribly. AND I also found out from one of his ex-friends that he had been teeling him all of this stuff that he swore he would never tell anyone! He ended up being so terrible for me but I'm still sitting here feeling like its never going to get better!

It just seems unfair that he cheats on me and is now happy with someone else while im stuck in the cold, ya no?

I really want to feel better and not be like this for so much longer, any advice?
Even the littlest things/tips will help I'm sure. :-)

Take Care,

Friday, April 10, 2009

Wild At Heart, right? :)


Tagged by :-)

What is your current obsession?
60's movies, happy music, sundresses, and heels.

What is your weirdest obsession?
my hamster? haha

What are you wearing today?
boyfriend jeans and a tank-i know, kind of simple. Simple doesn't have to be boring though ;)

Why is today special?

Because it's my day off.

What would you like to learn to do?

Knit (correctly), take better photography, and i want to learn to ride a horse someday!

What’s for dinner today?

Well, dinner WAS chicken nuggets and maceroni and cheese-yumm

What’s the last thing you bought?

VERY high heels and a headband with a big flower on the side! its purtyyy :)

What are you listening to right now?

Wild At Heart-Gloriana

That band is awesome, you should check 'em out if you havn't heard them yet!

What is your favorite weather?

Blue skies with a few clouds and just a little windy and a few clouds. Around 80 degrees. :-)

What is your most challenging goal right now?

English class haha

What do you think about the person who tagged you?

Her blog is so neat, I love it!

If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?

Australia :-)

Favorite vacation spot?

I havn't traveled much but I really enjoy NC.

What would you like to have in your hands right now?

a new pair of shoes, shoes always fit. haha

What would you like to get rid of?

My shyness

If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?

Any nice, sunny beach sounds pretty good right now.

Which language do you want to learn?

French, but I am quite terrible at learning foreign languages

What did you dream of last night?

That my friend didn't cut her hair as short as she said she did...strange haha

Who do you want to meet in person?

Taylor Swift and Kellie Pickler. :-)

One thing that you would snitch out of someone’s closet, with no regrets?

anything chanel lol

What’s the favorite piece of clothing in your own closet?

My homecoming dress from last year.

What is your dream job?

I honestly have no idea what I want to do yet. :/

If you had £100 now what would you spend it on?

either shoes or a dress.

Fashion pet peeve?

Something that is obviously too small for you to wear

Do you admire anyones style?

Yes! Audrey Hepburn-always so chic and sophisticated

Taylor Swift-always so fun

and Mary Kate-too many words!

Describe your personal style

It's so random! I can't really explain it, its whatever I like which is a lot of things! haha

Do you like to dress for warm weather or cold weather more?

I like cold weather because of all of the layering, but I would have to pick warm weather. sundresses are my favorite. :-)

I would like ANYONE to do this survey, and please let me know if you do because I will be looking forward to reading it! Pass it on to others and don't forget to add your own question in there!


Thursday, April 9, 2009

You're Not Sorry

Hello everybody! Again, sorry for the delay school school, school. Thankfully we have an extra day for the weekend due to Easter so that is super exciting. This will be the first weekend I will have to myself in such a long time, I'm really looking forward to it!
And I was tagged for a survey! I promise I will get that done tomorrow. :)
I have a few outfit posts to catch up on, but first the ACMS! The ACM's were awesome and Taylor won album of the year which was great! I LOVED Taylor and Kellie's dresses! They both looked amazing, here's a look if you hadn't seen it.


The video at the bottom of this post is Taylor's performance which was pretty...magical. ;) haha
Anyways, here is what I wore Tuesday, Wednesday, and then todays outfit!
Shirt: Maurices, Jeans: Wal-Mart, Shoes: Payless, Bracelet: Clair's, Necklace: Gift

Dress: Kohls, Leggings: Kohls, Shoes: Target, Bracelet: Dollar Store, Earrings: Clair's
Vest: Macy's, Shirt: JCPenny, Jeans: Kohls, Shoes: Charlotte Russe, Necklace: Vintage, Bracelet: Charlotte Russe

My "sweet" 16 is coming up in about a month from now and I'm ahving a big party so I've been looking for a party dress. Here's one I tried on at charlotte russe, I'm not really sure yet whether or not I'm going to get it. opinions?



Sunday, April 5, 2009

I Want a Love Like Johnny and June

I hope anybody who enjoys country music is watching the ACMS! All of the performances so far are great!
Today was so nice, the weather was so perfect so my mom and I drove out and went to Sonic, ha. We always go to Sonic whenever it's nice out haha.
Well here's what I wore today!

Dress: Charlotte Russe, Shoes: ??, Bracelet: Taylor Swift Concert, Necklace: Gift
Today, also, one of my best friends and I decided to become pescitarians. It's a lot like being a vegetarian, only you can eat fish. I would like to become a vegetarian sometime soon but I know it can't happen overnight, it will be a gradual thing.
Other exciting news is, well, I FINALLY got boyfriend jeans! I got mine from wal-mart(haha figures, right?) for 20 dollars! Here they are!

(Sorry about the barefeet haha)
I'll probably wear this outfit sometime early in the week, hopefully it will stay nice out! Spring weather is the best.
Currently Listening: ACM Awards

Vogue UK
May 2008

Saturday, April 4, 2009

A long long time ago....

Was when I last posted, I'm sorry! It's been almost a week, it was the last week of the marking period at school so I was super busy with make up work! I hope you all have been great! Today I'm getting ready to go to a friends house to sleep over, so now I'm just taking a break from getting ready.
Here's what I wore yesterday!
Shirt: Kohls, Pants: Macy's, Boots: ??, Scarf: Maurices, Earrings: Wet Seal, Necklace: kohls-i think

It's thankfully, been a little warmer now so I havn't had to wear layers and layers of clothes recently. Honestly, I've just been kind of lazy lately haha
Mary-kate looking absolutly beautiful as always recently at an event.

Last night I FINALLY got to see "Breakfast at Tiffany's", the classic 1961 film starring the stunning Audrey Hepburn. I absolutly LOVED it, I recommend it to all of you who havn't seen it yet.
I hope everybody has a relaxing and enjoyable weekend!
Currently Listening: I'd Lie by Talor Swift
"He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on
Doesn't he know that I've had him memorized for so long
And he sees everything black and whiteNever let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishin' he was mine"